The truth surprised me, snuffed in the eye three times, sprayed The blood of attachment sideways, late one friday evening Leaving me lost, speeding, dreaming the highway Dazed for 20 minutes then I woke in her driveway Broken, sulking, drowning in thought, pounding the canvas Man this sucks, my planets crushed, I'm famished Damaged, bust the dam, i'm crying tears, mind flying the years And there she is on the stairs trying her fears She gets in the car, my minds racing Through our initial friendship, first date, and love making Exposed, naked, then I thought of how ill I felt When she said if she "couldn't have me she'd kill herself" And how that weighed on my mind, and the memories of Arguing, her mistrust and jealousy The diving board's telling me "take a leap in the deep end" I looked her in the eye, a single tear told her its over and she said "Why are you doing this to me? You gonna throw away everything we had?" And I shook my head and i'm standing there, confused Wondering why she hadn't packed her bag And she said "What about our future? Damn boy... we had so much plans" I said I'm thinking 'bout our future, thought we'd done enough damage And decided I should take it in MY hands Two and a half years of half cheer, fear, and half mildew Its true: the one you feel the most will be the one to kill you So i'm taking this drive, knowing that when I arrive It'll be our demise, goodbye to all that I despise But sadly, goodbye to all that kept me alive though hard times Crying, i'm dying inside, but still driving 'cause I Common sense told me "take a leap in the deep end" I looked her in the eye, a single tear told her its over and she said... "Why are you doing this to me? You gonna throw away everything we had?" And I shook my head and i'm standing there, confused, wondering why she hadn't packed her bag And she said "What about our future? Damn boy... we had so much plans" I said i'm thinking 'bout our future, thought we'd done enough damage And decided I should take it in MY hands And so we have the last one, artsy Beautiful as fuck and the life of the party We never had a beef, shit she'd never even start me Re-taught me how to smile, made me forget that a heart bleeds Lights candles at the right time, I spit she loves that shit Throws the drama out the window, and makes love to Slint Supports no matter what, alleviates my fears Paints a picture of our future and appreciates i'm weird We met in a fairytale, she woke me with a kiss Flashed me a smile which broke me in its grip Right down to pieces, built me back stronger With support beams that won't rust to make us last longer But I get a funny feeling when she goes off alone Like i'm sick to my stomach when she talks on the phone Ignorance told me "take a leap in the deep end" I looked her in the eye, a single tear told her its over and she said "Why are you doing this to me? You gonna throw away everything we had?" And I shook my head and I said I don't know I don't know I don't know

I woke from a dream, or is it a dream? I don't know Broke from a chain of hope; couldn't see the rope I fell, groped heaven, felt euphoric for a second Then it ended with a message spoke saying, "Never hope" I leapt from the ground to grasp the air again and feel the end Extending my palms, smiling, sending out a call But then I hit the ground again, grunted, punted, tried again I never will stop hope and begging for the fall I'm asleep again, clouds part Streets form, I take a walk Passed the cars and bark-less dogs I see Eye Won but cannot talk Turn back, hit a wall Turn around, another wall I'm in a room made of notebooks I open one up and take a look No words written so I gripped my pen And spit the words 'tween lines but Everything I wrote seemed like gibberish and on the page Turned to scribbled shit but it freed my mind The notebook disappeared and then I Realized I just saved myself I grabbed the other books, wrote until they all went away Looked around the place, I was in my bed I woke from a dream, or is it a dream? I don't know Broke from a chain of hope; couldn't see the rope I fell, groped heaven, felt euphoric for a second Then it ended with a message spoke saying, "Never hope" I leapt from the ground to grasp the air again and feel the end Extending my palms, smiling, sending out a call But then I hit the ground again, grunted, punted, tried again I never will stop hope and begging for the fall I'm asleep again, clouds part Street forms, there she is Kissed my lips, took my hand Took a walk, to happiness Passed the exes and regrets All the fuck ups and the fears Wouldn't leave, they followed us The more we ran, the more they neared So I grabbed some branches built a fence So we could smile in peace But exes and regrets busted through the fence Wouldn't leave, so I built some walls with a door to escape The door lead us to a room with paintings and her tapestries We saw it was our house, held each other with a smile Then I looked around the place and I was in my bed I woke from a dream, or is it a dream? I don't know Broke from a chain of hope; couldn't see the rope I fell, groped heaven, felt euphoric for a second Then it ended with a message spoke saying, "Never hope" I leapt from the ground to grasp the air again and feel the end Extending my palms, smiling, sending out a call But then I hit the ground again, grunted, punted, tried again I never will stop hope and begging for the fall